This is just me checking in. I'm still having issues with my husband supporting my diet plan. When he comes home on the weekends he wants to be able to do nothing but fun which is pretty much eating out (fast food, pizza, that kind of crap) and watching tv/playing video games. So not helpful when you're struggling to lose weight, btw. But other than a few splurges when he's home I've been doing pretty good.
I've been noticing some decent results from my yoga tape too. I've lost a little bit of weight since I started this weight loss regimen, about half a pant size. Nothing to brag about, but it's something. I've also noticed some added flexibility since I started my yoga and I've definitely been gaining strength in my core and lower body. All of which is awesome.
And as far as the Special K diet and the Pilates tape goes, I haven't started either yet. I forgot to go to the store last weekend, so I'm going to try the Special K diet next week. I would prefer to start the diet on a Monday, it just makes more sense to me as I will be doing it for 2 weeks. If it works well, I suppose I might go longer than the 2 weeks, but I'm really mostly just curious as to whether or not it works. I plan on picking up a Pilates tape this week or this coming weekend, and if I haven't found anything that sparks my interest I suppose I'll just have to check Amazon or something.
But overall, things are looking pretty sweet for me and my body image. I may or may not make my first goal, but honestly I am just totally happy that I'm moving forward at this point. And it seems pretty reasonable to me that at this rate in another week, week and a half I'll have dropped a full pant size. Just gotta keep on the way I'm going, try to pick healthier options when we get fast food. I guess I'll have to make a list of the fast food places and the lowest calorie meals for each place. I'll share my results later in another post. But thanks for reading and wish me luck!
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Friday, October 19, 2012
Shame shame shame...
I know I haven't posted anything in ages, I just haven't known what I should say. It's been a really rocky time for me. I got really sick after my first post and I couldn't work out and I was so beat down trying to take care of me and my daughter that I wasn't eating overly healthy either. I felt like crap and didn't have the energy to bother with actually preparing and cooking meals. I was focused on just feeding myself whatever was easy, and as we all probably know that does not generally mean healthy foods. But then I got better and hopped back on the wagon. I was eating right, exercising for at least a half an hour 5 days a week, I was doing good. Well, except the weekends. The weekends weren't overly healthy. But my life got kinda weird. My husband started a new job and the hours are really wonky. He's pretty well been gone Monday through Friday, like out of town I don't get to see him at all gone, and then he's home for the weekend. And my husband, lucky guy that he is, is one of those people who can eat whatever he wants not work out and never gain a pound. And my daughter is the same way, and I totally forgot to mention that neither of them like to eat healthy food. My family is totally one of those that you have to hide vegetables in cheese or on pizza for them to touch them. I definitely don't have much of a support group at home. And with my husband gone so much, when he is home I pretty much forget about everything and cater to everything he wants to do which is primarily watching cartoons, gaming and playing with our daughter. Oh, and having me cook for him because I am a god in the kitchen. I know that sounds totally conceited, but it's true. I'm not good at a lot of things, I'm clumsy, undermotivated, and anti social, but holy crap can I cook. And he asks for things like chicken fried steak, mashed potatoes and gravy, macaroni and cheese and biscuits and I deliver because it's what he wants.
Basically I'm just really struggling with this and I feel so disappointed in myself and so incredibly discouraged. It kills me that I don't have the will power to stick to my diet and find time to exercise when my husband is home. and even when he's gone I struggle to keep myself motivated with my workouts. I guess I just didn't realize how hard this was going to be for me. I suppose I should have known better, I mean a large part of who I am and what I do revolves around my love of cooking and making people happy with what I cook and to be quite honest I hate working out. Like, I don't mind exercising, when I lived in the city I used to walk everywhere and I loved it. You really get to take in the sights and there's a set destination therefor a point to the exercise. But setting aside time to exercise just to exercise seems so wasteful. I know it's not; I live in the middle of nowhere and on a road too dangerous to take my daughter in the stroller, so I need to do workout tapes or something just to keep my body healthy. But I still just feel so stupid doing those damn tapes. Especially when my husband is home. It kills me how out of shape I am and it is particularly obvious just how out of shape I am when I exercise. I sweat like crazy, wheeze a little, and grunt obscenities at the tv between circuits. It's probably hysterical to watch, and I just don't want my husband to see me like that. It's so embarassing. When we got together I was thin and cute and was in pretty great shape. I used to walk to work with him when we lived in town, it was about 3.5 miles, and it took us 15 minutes. And then I'd end up hanging at the coffee shop until someone I knew would stop in and then me and my friends would end up walking all over town to various friends houses to hang. And then after my husband got out of work we'd walk to the bar or the store and then walk home. I mean I was power walking like 10-20 miles a day, I was too busy to binge eat, and I was great. My legs were seriously solid, my tummy was flat, and I felt and looked fabulous. We looked fabulous together. It was great.
Sorry about the serious rambling, for those of you who managed to decipher the poorly planned paragraphs above and make it this far, I salute you. I've just got a lot to get off my chest and I don't have many people that get what I'm going through. Well, not people I can talk to about this kind of stuff anywho. Most of my Dad's family is overweight or obese, but they do NOT talk about this kind of stuff. And I ended up with a lot of skinny gene friends.
But despite my dislike of workout tapes and my struggles with dieting, I have had more good days then bad with my regimen. At first I was dieting and working out and I couldn't see any results and it was super discouraging. I was working my ass off, I was sore, I really wanting a freakin soda, and I couldn't see any difference in my appearance and my clothes fit the same. It felt like I was making myself miserable for nothing. Then in my super bummy mood I ended up taking some time off the workouts (I think it was 3 days, not exactly sure) and then I started to notice that my pj's fit a little loose. It was one of those moments where I was super stoked followed by a face palm. I'm not stupid, I know basic biology and anatomy. When I was working out I was doing a Jillian Michaels kettle bell workout which is a serious cardio/strength workout. It's high intensity and is designed to seriously whip your body into shape. And let me tell you, it is hard. Like really really hard. Like after I finished the tape the first time I could barely walk. And when you do serious workouts, your muscles are stretched and tear just a bit. It's when the muscles heal that you get toned and lose weight as well as boost your metabolism. I was working my ass off everyday and not giving my muscles the time they needed to heal which is why I wasn't seeing any results. Duh.
So after my first little revelation as to what's wrong with my workout routine I had another. Bringing it back to basics yet again here. Because I allowed myself to become so sedentary and put on so much weight, my muscles aren't the only parts of my body that suffered. I need to consider the health of my joints as well. And it seems to me that I am almost 200lbs and have gone a very long time without working out. So doing seriously high intensity workouts squatting and jumping and what have you is not going to be easy on my joints. Especially when there is just so much weight being thrown on them. And I don't just want to be thin, I want to be healthy, so I really can't be throwing all I've got onto my poor under worked joints. But I also don't want to be taking a lot of time off between workouts. Easy solution, find a low intensity workout to do between my high intensity workouts. So I dug through my DVDs and found my old prenatal yoga DVD. It's a 45 minute tape, and it's a nice mellow workout. But at the same time I can feel the results without feeling like I just got hit by a bus. And it helps mellow me out before bed which is awesome as I have a hard time sleeping without my husband here. And yoga just makes me feel good, it makes me feel so relaxed and centered. And for another bonus I actually think I'm getting better results doing yoga than I was doing the kettle bell workout. Maybe my body just needs a little more time getting into semi-decent shape before I can get decent results with the kettle bell. I've got to remember that I am in the worst shape of my life and I need to take it slow or I'm just going to hurt myself.
So I've figured out what I am capable of, how much is too much, and that I need to take a break every couple of days to let my muscles heal. All stuff I knew before, but I've just never needed this much coddling when it came to working out. But I still want to do more without wrecking myself and I've been thinking about how I should do my workouts without hurting myself but still getting some variety in there so I don't just get bored and quit. I've decided to get a Pilates tape and vary my diet a little. I've done Pilates before and the results come quick and it doesn't beat the crap out of your body. It feels really organic and leaves me feeling good (like yoga) but I still feel like I got a good workout in. So I'm going to search for a great Pilates tape, they used to have one that I really like on Netflix, I think it was called Weight Loss Pilates or something like that. I'm going to see if I can't find it online later tonight because I really liked it.
And my dieting has been pretty basic up to this point. I only drink soda on the weekends (it's my treat to myself, I know it's stupid but I really like Coke) and I've been focusing on replacing junk food with healthier options. Instead of a cheese omelet for breakfast I have a small bowl of Special K, instead of microwave dinners for lunch I have a salad, that kind of thing. Just trying to cut out the empty calories really. However I was reading my cereal box and Special K has their Special K Challenge which claims that you will drop a pant size in 2 weeks just by following their meal plan. I had heard of their diet before but just kind of ignored it. But being that I like their products and I am actively trying to lose weight, I think that I'm going to give it a go starting next week. It's mostly stupid curiosity, but it's be cool if it worked. I'll let you guys know the details and whether or not it works in another post. I'll even include before and after pics.
But that's all for my seriously over due update, wish me luck in reaching my goals!!! Thanks for reading!
Basically I'm just really struggling with this and I feel so disappointed in myself and so incredibly discouraged. It kills me that I don't have the will power to stick to my diet and find time to exercise when my husband is home. and even when he's gone I struggle to keep myself motivated with my workouts. I guess I just didn't realize how hard this was going to be for me. I suppose I should have known better, I mean a large part of who I am and what I do revolves around my love of cooking and making people happy with what I cook and to be quite honest I hate working out. Like, I don't mind exercising, when I lived in the city I used to walk everywhere and I loved it. You really get to take in the sights and there's a set destination therefor a point to the exercise. But setting aside time to exercise just to exercise seems so wasteful. I know it's not; I live in the middle of nowhere and on a road too dangerous to take my daughter in the stroller, so I need to do workout tapes or something just to keep my body healthy. But I still just feel so stupid doing those damn tapes. Especially when my husband is home. It kills me how out of shape I am and it is particularly obvious just how out of shape I am when I exercise. I sweat like crazy, wheeze a little, and grunt obscenities at the tv between circuits. It's probably hysterical to watch, and I just don't want my husband to see me like that. It's so embarassing. When we got together I was thin and cute and was in pretty great shape. I used to walk to work with him when we lived in town, it was about 3.5 miles, and it took us 15 minutes. And then I'd end up hanging at the coffee shop until someone I knew would stop in and then me and my friends would end up walking all over town to various friends houses to hang. And then after my husband got out of work we'd walk to the bar or the store and then walk home. I mean I was power walking like 10-20 miles a day, I was too busy to binge eat, and I was great. My legs were seriously solid, my tummy was flat, and I felt and looked fabulous. We looked fabulous together. It was great.
Sorry about the serious rambling, for those of you who managed to decipher the poorly planned paragraphs above and make it this far, I salute you. I've just got a lot to get off my chest and I don't have many people that get what I'm going through. Well, not people I can talk to about this kind of stuff anywho. Most of my Dad's family is overweight or obese, but they do NOT talk about this kind of stuff. And I ended up with a lot of skinny gene friends.
But despite my dislike of workout tapes and my struggles with dieting, I have had more good days then bad with my regimen. At first I was dieting and working out and I couldn't see any results and it was super discouraging. I was working my ass off, I was sore, I really wanting a freakin soda, and I couldn't see any difference in my appearance and my clothes fit the same. It felt like I was making myself miserable for nothing. Then in my super bummy mood I ended up taking some time off the workouts (I think it was 3 days, not exactly sure) and then I started to notice that my pj's fit a little loose. It was one of those moments where I was super stoked followed by a face palm. I'm not stupid, I know basic biology and anatomy. When I was working out I was doing a Jillian Michaels kettle bell workout which is a serious cardio/strength workout. It's high intensity and is designed to seriously whip your body into shape. And let me tell you, it is hard. Like really really hard. Like after I finished the tape the first time I could barely walk. And when you do serious workouts, your muscles are stretched and tear just a bit. It's when the muscles heal that you get toned and lose weight as well as boost your metabolism. I was working my ass off everyday and not giving my muscles the time they needed to heal which is why I wasn't seeing any results. Duh.
So after my first little revelation as to what's wrong with my workout routine I had another. Bringing it back to basics yet again here. Because I allowed myself to become so sedentary and put on so much weight, my muscles aren't the only parts of my body that suffered. I need to consider the health of my joints as well. And it seems to me that I am almost 200lbs and have gone a very long time without working out. So doing seriously high intensity workouts squatting and jumping and what have you is not going to be easy on my joints. Especially when there is just so much weight being thrown on them. And I don't just want to be thin, I want to be healthy, so I really can't be throwing all I've got onto my poor under worked joints. But I also don't want to be taking a lot of time off between workouts. Easy solution, find a low intensity workout to do between my high intensity workouts. So I dug through my DVDs and found my old prenatal yoga DVD. It's a 45 minute tape, and it's a nice mellow workout. But at the same time I can feel the results without feeling like I just got hit by a bus. And it helps mellow me out before bed which is awesome as I have a hard time sleeping without my husband here. And yoga just makes me feel good, it makes me feel so relaxed and centered. And for another bonus I actually think I'm getting better results doing yoga than I was doing the kettle bell workout. Maybe my body just needs a little more time getting into semi-decent shape before I can get decent results with the kettle bell. I've got to remember that I am in the worst shape of my life and I need to take it slow or I'm just going to hurt myself.
So I've figured out what I am capable of, how much is too much, and that I need to take a break every couple of days to let my muscles heal. All stuff I knew before, but I've just never needed this much coddling when it came to working out. But I still want to do more without wrecking myself and I've been thinking about how I should do my workouts without hurting myself but still getting some variety in there so I don't just get bored and quit. I've decided to get a Pilates tape and vary my diet a little. I've done Pilates before and the results come quick and it doesn't beat the crap out of your body. It feels really organic and leaves me feeling good (like yoga) but I still feel like I got a good workout in. So I'm going to search for a great Pilates tape, they used to have one that I really like on Netflix, I think it was called Weight Loss Pilates or something like that. I'm going to see if I can't find it online later tonight because I really liked it.
And my dieting has been pretty basic up to this point. I only drink soda on the weekends (it's my treat to myself, I know it's stupid but I really like Coke) and I've been focusing on replacing junk food with healthier options. Instead of a cheese omelet for breakfast I have a small bowl of Special K, instead of microwave dinners for lunch I have a salad, that kind of thing. Just trying to cut out the empty calories really. However I was reading my cereal box and Special K has their Special K Challenge which claims that you will drop a pant size in 2 weeks just by following their meal plan. I had heard of their diet before but just kind of ignored it. But being that I like their products and I am actively trying to lose weight, I think that I'm going to give it a go starting next week. It's mostly stupid curiosity, but it's be cool if it worked. I'll let you guys know the details and whether or not it works in another post. I'll even include before and after pics.
But that's all for my seriously over due update, wish me luck in reaching my goals!!! Thanks for reading!
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